Fight [with God] like you fight with the people you love, heartfelt and raw and needy. Be willing to submit, to admit you were wrong, to kiss and make up; but be unwilling to give up or go away.
-Eve Tushnet ("Defining the Relationship" 1/15/09)
-mylittleredgirl [more info]
Do not be afraid, I am with you
I have called you each by name
Come and follow Me
I will bring you home
I love you and you are mine
-"You Are Mine" (David Haas)
Five good things about today:
1. From an email one of my friends sent me today: P.S - I started doing "Joy Sadhana" two days ago. :-)
2. At CAUMC small group tonight, the whole time I was there (well maybe not while I was debriefing to Sean before dinner re: [redacted, v.1]) I felt like the weight that had been on me for some days now was lifted.
In recent weeks, we've been talking about the difficulties and challenges of bringing our faith into our secular lives, and tonight we kind of flipped it -- with Sean showing an abbreviated version of Obama's inaugural address (a YouTube vid called "Boston Stops") and then a vid of Lowery's benediction. I turned out to be the far left person in the room on the issue of the separation of church and state, and unlike often when I'm the one dissenting voice in the room on the right, I totally went boldly in and and was respectfully engaging with people and adjusting my stance as I assimilated what other people were saying but wasn't backing down from articulating my opinions at all -- which was a really great feeling.
Meredith (who's recovering from bronchitis and was a little loopy from the codeine): "Oh, it's my turn."
Her husband Mike, sitting next to her, said, "They can be just a few words."
Meredith (Affirming Mike): "You're cute."
Sean was next, and she said, "You're cute, too -- but in a different way." We all laughed and then she elaborated: "I don't want to kiss you," at which point we busted out laughing.
3. I got a way better response to an email than I was expecting (Megan and Ari, I'll email you after I get some sleep).
4. Having comfortable interactions with Someone even before this intense exchange.
5. Having my read on someone (different someone than #4) validated and elaborated on by an actual mental health professional.
Three things I did well today:
1. [gym] 45min treadmill (I tried the Alpine Pass program, but it asks you to plug in max speed and max incline and so I put in the ones I did on Tuesday -- 4.3mph and 1.5incline -- 'cause they had felt like the max I could sustain, not thinking about the fact that I wouldn't actually have to sustain them for the full 45 minutes since they were input as "maximums")
2. I read more of the posts about [do we have a better umbrella term for this current round than Cultural Appropriation?]
3. I wrote a really honest email.
Two things I am looking forward to (doing [better]) tomorrow:
["anything that you're looking forward to, that means you're facing tomorrow with joy, not trepidation," as Ari says]
1. LEM book group
2. a response to aforementioned honest email