I have been wondering recently if i would feel better if i had a good cry...
...if that would be cathartic and beneficial in any way.
[Damn LiveJournal has a character limit for the Subject field.]
Anyway, recently i feel like i’m not supposed to like Smith. I’m supposed to be upset at the institutionalized racism, etc. I’m supposed to be disappointed with the academics. I’m supposed to be depressed at the lack of a social scene/Northampton night life. I’m supposed to be irritated at the cliquishness. I’m supposed to be disenchanted with how uninformed students are, blindly protesting the “cause of the moment.” I am supposed to be infuriated at the silencing of many diverse opinions. I am supposed to want to transfer. My question is, where would i go?
I was an Early Decision student. I knew in September that Smith was where i wanted to be. I wanted a small liberal arts college in the New England area, one with an activist bent, one where the higher-ups (incl. the faculty) care about the students, one with a good town or city easily accessible, one where people get along and are friendly. Where would you suggest i go? As much as i am upset and disheartened by Smith students at times, i don’t know anywhere that would be better. I really like Northampton, i really like this 5-College Consortium thing, for the most part i really like my classes, i have met lots of wonderful people here. Right now i would absolutely love to be home, done for the summer, away from Smith, back in Norwood. That saddens me. For the first time, i wish i were done with college. I think i will feel differently after a summer back in Norwood, though. I may even feel differently by the time i’m actually leaving at the end of this semester.