December 17th, 2002

you think you know...

Snowfall #5 (?) this morning past.

And again with the not being on AIM. Didn’t so much get work done, though i had grand intentions. I went to work this afternoon (4 hours, most of which time i was actually doing stuff) and got a $10 Cinemark gift card in a holiday card from my boss. (This is where i gloat about the fact that with that gift card i and a friend can go see a movie for free.) I did laundry this evening. Eventually (mostly during hours which were no longer Monday, which i had kept thinking was Tuesday anyway, but now i’m really digressing) i reviewed for my Modern British Poetry exam (which i am taking today -- Tuesday -- at 2pm), which i knew wouldn’t be that big of a deal, but i was tired and unmotivated. And after i post this i am going to bed, to sleep late for the third day in a row, this time on purpose.

I continued my tradition of not participating in primal scream (3 for 3 so far) because i just don’t feel stressed enough to wanna scream. My window overlooks the parking lot, so even more than last year i couldn’t help hearing everyone screaming. Lots of people sounded like they were trying to imitate tea kettles. I laughed a lot. And i did traipse over to Davis for free hot beverages. However, they were out of both chai and hot chocolate, so then i traipsed right back to my room.

Marnie gave me a wonderful holiday card. On the front it says:

“Blessed are they who see beautiful things in humble places where other people see nothing.”
-Camille Pisarro

She left it outside my door, so of course after i got it and i had to run up to her room and hug her and tell her how sweet and wonderful she is. And then we chatted until midnight. Would have chatted longer i’m sure, but she and her roommate are both taking a 9am exam.

An e-mail exchange with my brother:

him: y r u never on aim nemore
me: I've been purposely staying off AIM the past couple days so i can really concentrate on writing papers and studying for exams and all. (Though obviously as we can see, i'm not dedicated enough to avoid procrastinating by obsessively checking my e-mail.)
him: the idea is what counts
im too sic to care about doing work

You may feel as if someone is poking you in the side today, ELIZABETH, urging you to get up and get moving.
-from my horoscope for December 15, 2002

Many of your own personal goals have either been met or are in the process of manifesting, ELIZABETH, and this has you feeling exhilarated.
-from my horoscope for December 16, 2002

“Test everything, Hold on to the good.”
-1 Thessalonians 5:21

Later on, we'll conspire
As we dream by the fire
To face unafraid, the plans that we made
Walkin' in a Winter Wonderland
anime night

"The daylight is dying, My whole heart is crying. ... Wake up in the moonlight singing!"

I just want to take my Modern British Poetry exam and be done with it, but it's at 2pm.

I am so tired of studying and paper-writing. I just want this week to be over. (And yes, i'm back on AIM.)

I have to study for my Romantics exam, which i am so unmotivated about and which i plan to take Thursday afternoon. I have to finish my Linguistics paper, which i would really like to get done by Thursday night so i can just hand it in Friday morning. And at some point, probably Friday evening, i need to really figure out what i'm taking home and then pack it all up.

And i'm very sorry i missed having lunch with Allie. I'm not good at waiting for people when i'm hungry.

On the up side, new Buffy tonight and previously un-aired original 2-hour pilot of Firefly this Friday!