"i always feel i have to take a stand & there's always someone onhand to hate me for standing there"
This all makes me want to run away and cry. It is so complex, and everytime i think maybe i have a bit of it down, more stuff comes up and i keep feeling like i don’t know anything at all.
I have always avoided the TV news because it makes you depressed and scared and think the world is a horrid place. I’ve only made real efforts to get informed about world issues in the past few months. There are so many issues i wish i were more informed about, but one only has so much time, so for now i’m choosing Iraq.
So instead of reading more of The Bostonians
(blah) i attempted to catch up on over a week’s worth of NYTimes and other stuff. The results of which are behind an LJ-cut. I’m not sure why i keep posting this stuff. Probably more for my own convenience for future reference than anything else.
And then i feel the need to comment on other people’s LJs. Why do i do this to myself? People drive me insane and i want to hide under a rock, and yet i insist on responding to things people say (even on the Jolt -- gawd i am so pathetic), to make them think. And no, i certainly don’t think everyone should or has to agree with me. Hell, half the time i’m not sure i
agree with me. I just get really frustrated by ignorance and generalizations and all that.
Last Sunday i talked to my mom for 2 hours. She said, “Go forth and be an inspiration to your peers. Or at least complicate issues for them -- then we’ll know we’ve succeeded.”
Also around then, a friend of mine sent me this link
and mentioned “i respect what you've said on lj even if i don't have the guts to talk politics myself” I’d never thought of talking politics as something that took guts. I thought it took being thoughtful and intelligent and well-read and i never thought i was up to that, but until i started posting about war on Iraq, i never realized that it really does take guts, never understood why many people vowed not to talk about politics or religion. In high school, we didn’t do much talking about issues, and we all pretty much agreed anyway. But when you start disagreeing with people....
Words of wisdom from my dad: "Just remember, every religion has its fundamentalists. And for many people, politics--especially left politics--is a religion."( anyway, long list of interesting quotes and links regarding war on IraqCollapse )