March 1st, 2003

you think you know...

Sometimes you just need a break, ya know?

Tuesday night i was feeling meh and totally couldn’t focus on anything productive, but Sinfest cracked me up until i called it a night and went to bed.

Apparently the head of the Spanish department checks her e-mail at like 11:30 at night. The Lorca class i wanted to take last year and couldn’t and that wasn’t offered this year will be offered next year (Tues/Thurs, 3-4:50). Mad thanks to Doug for suggesting that i e-mail the head of the department to find out if the class would be offered next year. I’m intimidated about taking a Spanish literature class when it’s been 2 years since i took one, but we shall see.

Wednesday night still wasn’t up for doing anything. Read The Celluloid Closet [1981, not the updated one]. Is so frustrating (and depressing) to read about how many films had stuff cut out of them. Is also interesting how many were based on books, which had in them stuff that got cut when made into film. (Though of his movie Walk on the Wild Side, Edmund North said, “there was not the slightest hint of homoeroticism in Algren’s novel. That relationship between Jo and Hallie, among others, was mine.” And in The L-Shaped Room, Bryan Forbes creates the Cicely Courtneidge’s character, “to present a sympathetic portrait of a lesbian’s twilight world.”) The James Bond movies were originally novels? I continue to be struck by how very many movies were adapted from books. Come on people; if you want a movie, write a screenplay; leave the damn books alone. (I have a longstanding hatred of movies being made out of books.)
In Billy Wilder’s The Private Life of Sherlock Holmes (1970), a Russian ballerina wishes to engage Holmes as her bodyguard/lover, a position declined by Peter Tchaikovsky because “women were not his glass of tea.”
Holmes: Well, I had hoped to avoid the subject but you see . . . ah, Watson and I have been bachelors for several years and ah . . .
Ballerina: Come to the point!
Holmes: The point, madame, is that Tchaikovsky was not an isolated case.
Ballerina: You mean . . . Dr. Watson? He: is your glass of tea?
Holmes: If you want to get picturesque about it.
I went through and put down all my exam and paper duedates on my calendar. I have a Soc exam the day of the Museum tea, so if it’s anything like the last one i should be able to make the tea after all. I love when stuff like that happens.

And YAY for "The Naked I: Monologues from Beyond the Binary" (formerly "The Genderqueer Monologues")!

I was reading the Sophian on Thursday, and it sucks so much. But then i was thinking, what exactly do i want in a school paper? I may not be terribly interested in a lot of the campus events, but they certainly belong in a school newspaper. But what else? Movie, CD, etc. reviews are fine, though they hardly interest me. I get pissed by articles about current events that go beyond the campus because i find them not terribly well-written (among other reasons), but do i want the school newspaper to not be a forum for discussion of current events beyond the campus? Do i want those discussions to be confined to Jolt forums and dinner tables? Amherst College has The Indicator. a “journal of social and political thought.” Who thinks Smith should have something similar? Because i would so be up for that. (To my knowledge we have -- in theory anyway -- soapbox, the 5-College moderated philosophy journal; Meridians, a Smith-Wesleyan journal of feminism, race, and transnationalism; Mulch, a “source of information about multicultural affairs and social issues... examin[ing] the intersections between race, culture, religion, and sexuality,” but none of those are really what i had in mind.)

The author of White Weddings gave this week’s Issues in Queer Studies lecture: "The Power and Pleasure of the Heterosexual Imaginary" She had interesting stuff to say about the prevalence of heterosexual imagery and wedding imagery and of course the blond-haired blue-eyed ideal. She showed clips from 3 movies i had not seen, further proof that i live under a rock. (Really, i’m just not much of a movie person. I’m too cheap/lazy to go out to movies, and most movies don’t even really sound worth watching for free.) One thing i thought was interesting is that she doesn’t support the gay marriage movement because she sees it as perpetuating a bad institution. Now, i’m sure there are benefits that come with being married that shouldn’t come with being married, but there are a lot that i think are totally valid, like hospital visitation rights. I haven’t been able to find a full list of all the benefits that come with marriage, but while i’m all for changing the system if it needs it, i think everyone should have the option of having their partnership sanctioned by the state. (*prays no one starts arguing that poly relationships should be state-sanctioned*)

Amusingly, the Rec Council movie this week Monsoon Wedding and the movie we watched at tea was My Big Fat Greek Wedding. I liked MBFGW more than i thought i would, but i don’t understand the mass adoration. It’s a well-done romantic comedy which avoids some of my least favorite plot devices in romantic comedies and has some great lines.

CANCER (Jun 21–Jul 22): You may be feeling a bit disconnected today as you hold back from fully engaging in the circumstances of your day. It’s not that you are depressed or even discouraged. It’s just that believe that you can be more effective if you don’t let your emotions flow over into the outer world. Of course, this doesn’t mean that you won’t be in touch with your feelings; it just means that you may not be sharing them with others.
-BeliefNet horoscope for February 28, 2003

Mostly i’ve been good. I think i’m getting sick, which i am choosing to blame my recent meh-ness and excess of sleeping on. :) I’ve been doing a fair amount of random socializing, which is always nice, and i have a Big Caper group which is also a good.

Lots of work to do this weekend. I think i should make a to-do list.
anime night

A post which is neither More About Iraq nor A Day in the Life.

hermionesviolin: And how are you?
tranceballerina: regretting cutting the class on being a girl that everyone else apparently took.
hermionesviolin: I think i never signed up for that class. We can be nongendered individuals together.

ecosystem posits that it is only the really interesting people who attempt suicide. I don’t know enough to agree or disagree, but i seriously hope that no one extrapolates from that the idea that all really interesting people are at times suicidal, because i would vehemently disagree with that. jdubois79 states:
I've often thought that it would be easier to be normal. To not think and worry about the things that I think and worry about. To be, as my friend's mom puts it "a first time arounder." (referring to reincarnation and learning as you live).

I think it is easier not to think. Not to challenge yourself. It is acceptable to just plod through life, not making waves. As much as we say we value individuality in this country, I think that notion is patently false: We value individuality as long as it conforms to our ideas of what is still acceptable.

It's easier not to think. To live ones life in a fog. Those who don't live their lives continually battling upstream, against a sea of banal and mediocrity. And it's a hard fight -- some people just can't take it. The either slip into obscurity, or flare out like a roman candle.

It is strength and beauty that keeps us going. A desire to keep bringing light into the world, and to see who and what we become as we move through our lives.
"Colin," Dunworthy said, "Sometimes you do everything you can, and you still can't save them."
Colin swiped at his tears with the back of his hand. "But not always."
Always, Dunworthy thought. "No," he said. "Not always."
"Sometimes you can save them," Colin said stubbornly.
-Connie Willis, Doomsday Book
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