December 15th, 2003

anime night

the blue light was pretty on the snow

Hello, first real all-nighter of my career. Thanks for waiting until the end of my 5th semester in college. Oh, i see you and my tendency toward distraction/procrastination have already met. Can i have a nap now? What, you mean i have more work to do? Damn.

Finished Estela's paper. That 8-10 page paper. Which is currently 6 pages. Yeah. The entire second half, at least, could definitely use work. But it's very much a full, coherent draft, which really just needs the existing content revised and elaborated -- i don't think i need to work in any additional ideas, which is a blessing. So e-mailed her the "borrador" and now i'm off to shower, eat, and start on those 3 other subjects i have. I think a break from masks and love and death and sex and homosexuality and religion will be nice (what, where you wondering why i was excited about this paper? ;) ).

Entries of substance will have to wait for the moment, but yay for prof e-mails.

How cute is my Spanish professor? This is from her to my class last night:
Queridas estudiantes: Espero que esten trabajando bien (calentitas en casa y tomando chocolate).

Mañana estare en mi oficina disponible de 2:30 a 4 pm. POr la mañana tambien me pueden encontrar entre las 10 y las 11. Esto por si tienen consultas/ dudas/ algo que--a ultimo momento-- quieran discutir conmigo.

Un fuerte abrazo y fuerza, que falta menos!!!


Also, i have the bestest advisor.
From: Douglas Patey
To: Elizabeth Sweeny
Date: Sunday - December 14, 2003 7:15 AM
Subject: Re: the Jane Austen class

Hi Elizabeth--
    Interesting to wake up to the news that we've nabbed Saddam Hussein.
    The Bookstore's list is right, although I'm still tinkering a bit (deciding whether we'll indeed read Pilgrim's Progress. Reason not to: it's too much Sunday School. Reason to: it's hard to think of any other book that's been so influential on the novel). No Frankenstein: I'm bored with it.
    The real reason to use specific editions is so that we can look at passages in class. I've got spares ("desk copies") of several of our books, though, that I'll be happy to pass on to you. What's the best way? To put them into campus mail, or hang onto them for now?
anime night

(no subject)

So, i crashed after breakfast, which meant no errands and no vegan-nuggets-lunch.

I acquired a cough around, i dunno, 6 in the morning? My face was feeling chapped, too, so we're hoping it's just the cold dry air.

I'm at work, partly for the change of scenery (since Friday i haven't left my house except to go to church yesterday morning), partly because i suspected (accurately) that i would be able to get paid to do my homework, and partly because i had to come in to sign my pay voucher anyway :)

In the past i have come in to work no problem during finals period, but last Wednesday was Spanish draft combined with feeling poorly, and this Wednesday i need to be studying hardcore. Yup, End of Semester of Doom.

Also, my computer is even crankier than before, i think, and i don't know why.


I know i can make it to Friday at 4, really. I think i can even get my work done halfway-decently. I'm just really ready for this semester to be over.
anime night

welcome to the freakshow, here we go...

< discussion of being ill >

I have acquired sniffles, and the cough has gotten worse. Have been popping cough drops like they’re candy. Also drinking lots of water. Had orange juice with dinner. I was so cold the whole time i was at work, plus wondering if i was going to vomit, which is always charming. [Part of me wants to purge whatever’s in my system. Part of me registers the empty ache in my stomach and wishes i had some appetite–and some food with some nutritional value nearby.] Am cold again now in my room. Grr. Hopefully it’s just the drafty window. Also, lots of coughing, triggers the vomit reflex, which is not fun. Oh, and piercing head pains when i walk – this is new and fun. Thanks to hedy for being a sweetheart and bringing me tea. At like 8:00 i was considering going to bed. Primal Scream is soon, and my window overlooks the parking lot, but dammit i’m going to bed now.

< /discussion of being ill >

On the positive side, i picked up my second Quashie paper and got an 82, which means i have a prayer of getting better than a C in that class.

when i need to wipe my face
i use the back of my hand
and i like to take up space
just because i can
and i use my dress
to wipe up my drink
i care less and less
what people think
and you are so lame
you always disappoint me
it's kinda like our running joke
but it's really not funny
i just want you to live up to
the image of you i create
i see you and i'm so unsatisfied

My Secret Slasha fic is coming along nicely, and i finally made my btvs_santa fic assignment work (i like the pairing, but it was a detailed request, so i kept wanting to go in a direction that wouldn’t work with the given parameters ).

lilithchilde, should i expect you for lunch tomorrow?

The fam is picking me up Friday evening, just in case anyone was planning a surprise end of finals dinner for me... *laughs* (I return January 4, though *wink*wink*)

Apparently i’m turning into a giant bitch. [thought prompted by at least 2 comment threads] I am okay with this. See Ani quote above. I waste so much trying to say or do what i think people want or expect. I need to stop. I will not base my self-worth on the approval of other people.
I am a big fan of honesty. This of course, comes with responsibilities. You have to think about how people are going to take your words, and phrase accordingly. Think about when and how is an appropriate way to make your statement. You should be clear about whether you are interested in pursuing the discussion. You have to be able to back up what you say. You have to be able to admit when you are wrong. Be willing to clarify or rephrase so that people better understand what you intended. Don’t make personal attacks. I remain impressed that even in threads where i come across like a bitch, i have had rational discussion with people.
I am all about owning what you say. And please, call me on my shit. If you think i’m wrong or unclear or misleading or whatever, please call me on it, really.

*sings ASH’s “Owning My Mistakes”*