March 29th, 2004

obsessedmuch?

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Happy Birthday, lilithchilde.


Got your Christmas fic finished for your birthday. Hope you like, but i won’t hold it against you if you don’t. Promise :)

Being the birthday girl, you’re even absolved from my “give me feedback” whine. Well that and the fact that i know you’re hella busy ;)
hermione by oatmilk

Finished my paper! :)

carpdeus (2:20:57 PM): <-- has never read one of your papers and found it blah ;-) Have a good one
Auto response from hermionesviolin (2:20:57 PM): blah, papers...

Was a very good kid and only lifted a paragraph (and even that i tweaked) and a couple lines from another paragraph from the summer’s Robinson Crusoe paper for this semester’s Robinson Crusoe paper. I’m actually surprisingly pleased with myself on this paper.

Have been working on my short UMass paper on The Company of Wolves (which uses nothing from the previous paper i wrote on that) as procrastination this weekend, so i’m gonna finish that before going to bed tonight.

The Briar Rose paper will not done tonight, unfortunately. Oh well, there’s little reading i have to do (mostly it’s just A Sentimental Journey, which is little over a hundred pages) so it shouldn’t be a big deal.

(And there’s the everpresent fic work, of course. Hey look, once again i got the pairing i requested. Far less unusual -- though actually only 4 of 19 of us requested it -- and far more writeable this time, though.)

Am looking forward to seeing my favoritest Catholic in a few weeks :)

There are so many people (Kate, Ken, Josh, Adam, Sarah P., off the top of my head) i really wish i had the time to hang out with. Hopefully Senior Week can be awesome.

Curious: of those people who listed “Lolita -- I have to agree, what's the real story?” on that “invite fictional characters to dinner” meme, have you actually read the book? I mean, not that reading the book means you aren’t interested in hearing her tell the story, i’m just curious. *watches this post turn into a discussion about the book*
hermione by oatmilk

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Well, that was odd. A guy just called, whispering, and said, in that kind of "I'm so embarrassed" tone, that he had forgotten the Director's name. I gave it to him and spelled it. When Ann gets back from lunch, must ask what SF's title is and write it down, as someone asked a while back and i had to ask Ann and i don't now remember. I think it was Ms. because she doesn't have her doctorate and her surname isn't her husband's name (apparently that means you can't use Mrs.?), but i don't recall. He also wanted the exact title and address of the museum, which i happily gave to him, and he conscientiously repeated everything back at the end to make sure he had gotten it right. But he was whispering the whole time. *shrugs* Maybe he was ill or something.

Okay, back to the filing. When a file folder gets full and we thus start a new one, the old one is supposed to get a rubber band put around it so new stuff doesn't accidentally get put in it. These seems to not happen a lot of times, though, so i just rubber banded a bunch of files for this one lady and am reordering a bulk of paper from the front of the folder-directly-prior-to-the-current-one. (Is there a good word for that, like the inverse of "penultimate" or something?) Is it bad that i feel a certain sense of triumph or, more accurately, of "I'm so much smarter/better than the people who did this filing before me"?
Giles on a horse, need i say more? [muzakgurrl]

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Damn, am totally dozing off trying to read A Sentimental Journey. That's what i get for staying up late, i suppose. Maybe i'll spend some quality time with fic :)

LJ is empty today; guess everyone's busy doing actual work, it being Monday and all.
want to believe [mys1985]

"Come and see...."

Went to the Julian of Norwich lecture (Mark Burrows: "Wild Hope for Dark Times: A Lenten Meditation With Julian of Norwich") tonight. The lecturer was, as Liz Carr put it, "a poetic soul." He quoted Ellen Hinsey and Adam Zagajewski and i think other people, too, as something of a prelude to Julian. Personally i would have preferred more Julian and less other people, but oh well. Some of the stuff he said really spoke to me and the lecture was certainly well worth going to.

Julian talks a lot about the passionate love of Mother Jesus. One of the first things to really strike me was when he was telling about Julian's vision of the suffering Jesus and Jesus saying to her, "Is it enough?" meaning "Is it enough for you? Is my love enough for you?" and that really brought for home for me the power of Jesus suffering for each and every single one of us out of that deep love, and how powerful that love is regardless of what you believe about Jesus' divinity or his claim on any sort of religious/theological/spiritual truth, in a way that i don't think it had hit me before. I have read a lot of people saying that they had similar reactions to Gibson's Passion movie, and Mark even alluded to the Passion movie, and he said that Julian would say that the violence is not the end but is rather the beginning, the first step.

Now i want to go back and reread Julian.

Mark's teaching a graduate seminar on Julian of Norwich and there are a number of Unitarian Universalists in the class, and he was interested in how they would react to her since she is so very Trinitarian, but they love her, in part because she is so universalist. She talks about that intense love of a Mother God who never lets go. I long ago rejected the idea of Hell because i insist on a loving Creator God, and such a God could never condemn loved creations to eternal damnation, particularly not for the actions of a finite lifespan, so i'm always pleased to hear others who have rejected the possibility of Hell for that reason.

Mark talked about how often Jesus says "You have heard it said, but I say to you..." That he often lays aside the Torah in favor of compassionate experience. He said that one should look at the suffering of the world, and then look at the Torah. He also talked about the tradition of arguing with Scripture, of arguing with God, and i was reminded that i really need to learn more about that Jewish tradition because it's something that really appeals to me (it's like ur-Protestantism) and also because sometimes struggle with the text can lead one to be tempted to just reject the text, and it would be really interesting to see how people reconciled arguing with the text with the idea that it is The Text.

Mark talked about how Julian rejected the idea of God having any anger and also said that God doesn't forgive, because God doesn't see our sin, so during the Q&A Emily Cox asked something i think a lot of us were thinking, which was basically along the lines of "If God doesn't see sin, then why should we try to not sin?" [except it wasn't phrased quite like that, because i think an obvious answer to that would be to say that God doesn't see sin, but God sees the results of sin, that sin hurts other people and hurts ourselves. I wonder if this is part of what Liz Carr was getting at; she had different interpretation of Julian's thoughts on God and sin than Mark did, and she talked about pain and i didn't really get all of it -- yet another reason i should reread the Showings.] and in his answer he quoted someone about each of us having "orginal beauty" within us, and basically saying that if we lived recognizing that we have the divine within us and trying to bring that to light, that we would live better lives and that we should focus on trying to live our lives that way rather than on "not sinning." I definitely like the idea of trying to be a light unto the world, and certainly an emphasis on a Yes thing rather than a No thing is of the good. I don't think i can be sold on the idea that God doesn't see sin, though, especially in the context of meaning that we do not need to be forgiven by God for anything. But Julian is really difficult and complex (though in some ways so very simple) and i think it could be really fruitful to really read her writings and meditate on them.

I had seen Liz Carr at the Daniel Berrigan reading but could never manage to make it over to wherever she was before she was somewhere else as she was rather in demand, so i was really pleased to get to spend time with her after the talk tonight, and it always brings her such joy to see me.

She thinks i have this wonderful love of life and learning because i audited her class. She rather reminds me of Michele.

I told her i might actually go to Radical Catholics next year, because Wednesdays have been bad nights for me because i have prior commitments but i won't next year so i'll be able to go, and she said it really is a bad night and often she even isn't able to go and so they might change the day next year and so i said with my luck it would. She said i should tell Sarah Newby that i should be on the board so that i can help make the schedule work for me.

The amount of faith people have in me, in my abilities or my worth or whatever, is rather astounding, particularly as i know i so don't live up to it. But it's also rather comforting in its way, plus of course the impetus to want to live up to people's expectations (which can be a good thing, in moderation).

We are going to make plans to get together and have tea. I miss people.