"oh my love i have been betrayed -- by the war raging inside of me"
I seem to always forget that there are lyrics in between the first and last lines of this chorus.
Oh, my love, I have been betrayed
by the thoughts I think,
by the words I say
Oh, my love, I have been deceived
by the war raging inside of me.
What is up with my feeling queasy like every morning recently? Today I didn't eat anything until after I went to the gym -- at which point I (slowly) ate a blueberry bagel -- and yet I was still feeling queasy come lunchtime. (Last week it would go away by the time I'd walked to the T in the morning.) I got french fries and a banana for lunch -- and then bumped into Nicki, who wasn't feeling well either and was going to get fro-yo, which idea I decided to adopt as well.
Lack of sleep + emotional stress = ftw. (mjules said, "I hope everything turns out as okay as it can, and in the meantime I wish you peace." Exactly.) And no, I don't want to talk about it. I'll be fine, it's just a sucky situation which nothing can really be done about.
I'm not good at keeping secrets. I only share with people I trust are safe (and I don't think my trust has been misplaced yet), but that is not necessarily everyone else's expectation when they trust me with things. This is probably something I should work on.
In better news, Prof.B's MiddleEast trip seems to be fine. (Multiple cooks in the kitchen and all, so I worried that stuff had gotten dropped, but we seem okay.) And today wasn't wholly unproductive. (I did work stuff and also did my writeup of The Curiosity of Chance
. I private-posted a placeholder entry last night, but it's public now that it's finished.)
I was up so so late last night. I would have crashed sooner tonight, but tonight was the HIMYM
season finale (this week will likely be slow enough that I could easily watch it streaming online, but I like watching stuff right when it airs anyway).
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On CNN this morning, Ed Rollins, Republican strategist, said that Bush's talk about appeasement at the Knesset was a bad idea, and that Obama used it well -- pushed Hillary's WVa win off the front page. I hadn't thought of it that way before.
John Roberts asked him about Tom Davis' statements about the Republican party (link
), and he basically said he agreed. I'm so used to this sense of the Republican party as a dominant force, that it's sort of weird to hear major GOP people saying this stuff.
talked about "Wilde writing REALLY WEIRDLY about Jesus"
and she then posted
His miracles seem to me as exquisite as the coming of Spring, and quite as natural. I see no difficulty at all in believing that such was the charm of his personality that his mere presence could bring peace to souls in anguish, and that those who touched his garments or his hands forgot their pain: or that as he passed by on the highway of life people who had seen nothing of life's mysteries saw them clearly, and others who had been deaf to every voice but that of Pleasure heard for the first time the voice of Love and found it as "musical as is Apollo's lute": or that evil passions fled at his approach, and men whose dull imaginative lives had been but a mode of death rose as it were from the grave when he called them: or that when he taught on the hillside the multitude forgot their hunger and thirst and the cares of this world, and that to his friends who listened to him as he sat at meat the coarse food seemed delicate, and the water had the taste of good wine, and the whole house became full of the odour and sweetness of nard.
Is it bad that I'm really quite fond of that? (I've never read De Profundis
, so all I'm saying is that I like that excerpt.)
I have no real interest in seeing the Prince Caspian
movie, though I've been reading other people's reviews of it (thus far, Sharon hated it, Mari and Carolyn loved it). I saw a review on friendsfriends (kben
) which I enjoyed: ( Read more...Collapse )
I've been reading posts about Supernatural
(a show I saw a minute or two of once and which fandom I only peripherally follow) recently -- the ones responding to apocalypsos
' "Bitchwach" posts about the use of certain gendered insults in the three seasons of the show.
The argument that resonates with me most is the frustration that it's expected that this behavior is just "boys being boys." cereta wrote
I mean, seriously, is this it? Do we expect so little of men? This, by the way, is an area where I think men who get it should be really pissed off. God, if society expected nothing better of me than to be an overgrown kid who casually threw around derogatory words for people different from me, I'd be pissed off all the time. But seriously: are we never going to say, "No, this isn't acceptable. No, you don't get to behave like this and not get called on it. No, you shouldn't do this, and if you do it, I'm going to choose not to be around you."?
talks about masculinity and social class
. I hadn't seen people attributing the misogynistic language to the characters' working class background, but as I said, I'm not actually in this fandom at all, and it's definitely a connection I can easily plausibly see people making -- and honestly probably one I've fallen into myself in other contexts.)