still mostly radio silent
So, I told Melissa this morning that I think I'm not going to PiCon
I'm still recovering from WriterCon and I think I'd like to have that weekend at home.
There are blocks of time where I'm not interested in any of the programming, and maybe I could make arrangements with Emma to hang out, but I'm not sure how feasible that would be.
I am also not excited about being Internet-less (yes, a laptop is so on my To Purchase list), though N. said he'll have his laptop but won't be using it most of the weekend so I'd be welcome to use it, which is sweet of him.
I still don't have quite the energy/focus/whatever to do much of the productive stuff I'd like to do (like assorted writeup posts and responding to comments), which displeases me.
I've been better than I sometimes am (though still not optimal) about getting enough sleep this week, and I wonder if some of it is that I've been expending more emotional energy than I realize. (Though I think some of it at least is that with the warm-and-humid weather we've been having, the sleep I've been getting hasn't been optimal -- though last night and today have been lovely.)
I have also been borderline sick this week -- I blame my housemate, who was trufac sick last weekend and still isn't fully recovered. It's mostly just feeling a little coughy and sniffly after I wake up; when I'm at work or whatever I'm fine.
I really did think about calling my grandma this evening (and practicing that whole boundary
thing by keeping it to like 30 minutes or whatever) since my mom's out of town, but I just didn't have the energy.Edit:
I did talk to Lorraine on the phone for an hour and a quarter because I apparently absolutely have the energy for explaining the dynamics of the past two years and why I feel good about things going forward (I was also reminded, for the second time today, that I have lots of friends who will
tell me when they're concerned that a relationship I'm in isn't good for me).