Now taking suggestions for a column for next week.
Got a brief note from my friend Kevin. I value his friendship even though i'm always so bad about replying to his letters in a timely manner. I hadn't heard from him in months despite having sent a couple of letters in that time period, and i just got this brief note. Sometimes he says things that upset me. Sometimes he says things he worries will upset me and they don't. We work through them, though, because communication and honesty are important and we value each other's friendship and we learn from each other. This was a note to say that he had been working on a long letter to me and then received my last letter and scrapped it and started working on a new long letter which he worries will make me hate him but which he thinks is necessary to write and which he hopes i will read the whole way through. Um, okay. I have suspicions as to what this will be about, but we shall see. [And no, i don't feel like sharing any more details. Maybe i will after i get his real letter.]
I want to learn more about the Buddhist idea that "Life is suffering." Reading his letter made me think of that, because so often recently i have felt like it's so difficult to have relationships with people, to communicate with people, that i'm always having to work at it, that relationships and communication are a constant process of labor.
I think of Layna, brilliant at 2:44am, thinking about how we're always seeking God but things keep getting in the way, keep distracting us.