Your moment of new beginnings is here. Go with the method that feels the best. Everything you need is lined up and waiting for you. You have no one to please but yourself.
I want to paint. I want to paint things that make people feel their pulse. Like drums. Like running. Like making love.
I will paint a Tarot deck --- my own. I will go to the beach and find Claudia and ask her to pose for the High Priestess and the Queen of Pentacles. I will give her tea and irises and lace to tie her hair but not her arms. Some of the people in my deck will have brown skin. Some of the people will be my mother, Perdita, Eddie Flynn, Jack, my father. Some of the faces will be mine. I will be the Hanged Man, also the woman in the Lovers card, also the Queen of Cups. I will be Strength with her lion.
-from The Hanged Man by Francesca Lia Block